I have been missing in action for over the past month. I'm still ALIVE ... School has taken over my life these past few weeks and even tho I've had a bit of a social life, I've been finding it hard to keep up with everything on my plate. School, dance, Boyfriend, Friends, Family, Working out and looking for a job. I cant seem to juggle all these things anymore and im dropping the ball. I wish I knew how to manage everything all at once but seems that you have to be wonder woman to know how. Maybe even she wouldn't be able to do so with the ease and agility I dream of one day mastering. I'm feeling so stressed and the root of my stress is called School. I stress because I wanna do good in all my classes and at the current time my marks arnt reflecting that wish. I stress because I need to pay my bills and Im broke 'cept I have a secret stash of cash that Im saving for a vacation and I could use that money for bill but I NEEEEED a vacation. I stress because I need a job to get the money for my bills and i have to time to work but I feel since my grade are shitty I should just focus on that and put the job search on hiatus till after finals. I stress because I feel like a leach or some sort of parasite because my folks help me out with my bills. I hate how when I was in highschool or even first time in college I use to have a crazy work load for school and still managed to work 15-20hrs a week but now that my load is less Im having such a hard time keeping up. I fear that Old age is tapping me on the shoulder, they say as we get older we absorb less... I fear this might be true. I hate how I dont feel like a good gf b/c of the things mentioned above I cant treat my bf they way I would like to or give him more of my time... my time for him feels so limited I wish I could give him more. I wanna have more time for my girlfriends too I swear I feel like its been months that ive been so out of touch with them and its only really been a month since Ive last seen them.I just want to end my semester and have a somewhat normal life AGAIN!
ps- I may be missing till mid -end April, school has taken time away from my life.
